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« on: September 30, 2011, 04:18:01 AM »
I know my life has had some drastic changes this year. I can only hope even though I was not able to complete the task of getting everyones engine over here I can only hope that it was my enthusiasm that prompted people over here to purchase an engine or more from the UK. My goal is for 2012 to be a better year and move forward. I may have been down but I am not OUT. I have been without a computer for a spell and hope to resolve that soon. Dr Death   PS I still feel that family is first and for most.

Original Lister Cs Engines / Re: Container shipping out of England
« on: September 30, 2011, 03:36:32 AM »
Gary I guess I owe you a world of THANKS. 2011 has not been one of my better years. Every corner has had some road blocks. I guess it is what we learn from the road blocks if it was GOOD OR BAD.  I know there is at least 2 of us and maybe 3 who have engines in Blackpool. It really is not Blackpool but close. I would like to be able to put my engines in there if possible. Please let me know. I know one thing for sure Life is not like a box of chocolate. Unless there is some NASTY chocolate out there. Mike

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: March 18, 2011, 02:27:01 AM »
I have not posted for awhile. I have been going to counseling and I have found that I am not such a bad person. I am still not sure what path my marriage will take but I am getting closer to dealing with what I perceived the negative path when I first posted this. I have found through counseling and faith my original path my not have been such a big negative in my relationship. I still want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for all of the comments. Even the ones I took as negative at the time. I am not the monster I thought of myself and I do believe that everyone should have some things in their life that make them happy. I was not cheating or going to bars spending my money. Thanks again. Mike DD

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: March 01, 2011, 10:25:57 PM »
T19 I suppose like many males I am guilty of LOOKING AND NOT SEEING, and HEARING AND NOT LISTENING. I have a therapist for myself that I will hope will help me with these. Julie knows she has faults but she has to address those. I need to fix myself then if it will not work then I have tried. I hope I will be afforded enough time to show I am TRUE TO CHANGE. I know it has taken a long time to get to where we are. It just hurts not to see improvement to where I would like to go. Her biggest concern is how long will it LAST. I can say how I have been feeling if I ever get to this point again I hope someone shoots me. I don't think I could deal with the stress. Thank everyone for the encouraging words. I know not everyone marriage can be saved but I think that every marriage would be better if it was saved. Mike DD

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: March 01, 2011, 09:33:20 PM »
Listerboy I do not wish to pass judgement on anyone. But at this time in my life you are right I would like to make it work. I have not said anything about the negative and I might have to face it but now my only prayer is Gods will be done. If that happens it will be the right choice. I am not ready to face the other choice. If it happens I hope I can look to God to help me not become bitter with him of my wife. It was both of us who RAPED the marriage. Mike DD

Lister Market Place (things for Sale) / Re: engines for sale
« on: February 27, 2011, 11:22:52 PM »
Gary that looks pretty sweet. Good snag. Mike DD

Lister Market Place (things for Sale) / Re: 2 Cylinder Air Cooled on EBay
« on: February 27, 2011, 05:56:25 PM »
When it becomes a DODGE let me know. LOL  Mike DD

Engines / Re: cs 6 1 strip
« on: February 27, 2011, 02:48:24 PM »
Komet as for manuals got to this site  It has about any manual you could want and more. They are free to down load but they are always looking for donations to keep the museum open and for improvements. Mike DD

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: February 27, 2011, 12:02:04 PM »
Bob you are right on track about a therapist. Men seem to think is is a sign of weakness if the would have to see a therapist. Men are more inclined to go to a friend. Going to a friend unless you goal is to first see what your problems are and if you are willing to fix them. Friends tend to agree with everything you say so the problem never gets solved and it could get worse. So you have 2 choices. Get the problem fixed then see if you are compatible or move on to find someone who is willing to over look the problem. The problems with hearing instead of listening and looking instead of seeing is something that not many people like to tolerate for very long.

So I guess all I can hope for is to work on my problems then see if the change will be enough to save a marriage. I might not be given the chance to prove it but at least I will in the long run benefit from it. I would like to clear up something that I may have let people believe. My wife and myself were very much involved in Gods word. This is why I have been so hard on myself because we got away. Sometimes women are big enough or have enough faith that men can stray away and the wife will keep up the role of the male until the male gets his head on straight. It is very clear in the bible it is the mans role in this. No excuses.

My first marriage lasted 27 years. If I had listened to counselors back then maybe I would be at 37 years. I guess I will never know. All I know now is I have invested 10 years and I have the choice to move on and maybe have someone 5 years or pray I will have the chance to have another 30 years. Time will only tell. I still thank everyone for the support. I will never be able to put into words how much it has meant. Mike DD

General Discussion / Re: Microcogen site
« on: February 27, 2011, 01:17:01 AM »
Ade when I come over are you going to introduce me to your little lady?????????????????????????????/

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: February 26, 2011, 04:30:24 PM »
Thank you Bob. Phone conservations are still a little difficult. Mike DD BTW when is you ETA to Kansas. It might be good since my daughter lives in Lawrence and my wife could go on up there and spend some time with the grandchild when the unpacking gets done.

General Discussion / Re: NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: February 26, 2011, 01:56:17 PM »
I know no single word that could explain the strength I have received from everyone here. It is very hard to give an update since it seems very negative.

I hope me posting this will not be boaring but I did want to share one thing. Beside the monster I have seem to become I was also informed by Julie my wife that she had no intentions of going back to church and felt God was not the choice. That just about finished the destruction of me because I knew God was the only way something good would come of this.

Julie did inform me that the only time she ever got a spiritual filling was when she was back in her hometown from a Pentecostal church. So I had time yesterday and I looked through the phone book and sure enough we have one in our town. I called and of course got an answering machine. It was like calling the suicide hot line and you get a recording to call back.

Anyway last evening I received a call from the minister and his first words were Mike I know you. It turns out since his church is smaller he has to supplement his income and he works at the automotive section at our Wal-Mart, and another friend who also works there also goes to the church.

So I guess in my quest I have found somewhere different that maybe Julie might decide to go to someday we will have friends. What ever the outcome I plan to use this chance to make myself a better person and hopefully God will perevent a bad outcome before Julie sees I have changed.


PS just so no one worries I have no plans to try doing back flips down the aisle of the church

General Discussion / NOT ENGINE RELATED
« on: February 25, 2011, 05:29:02 AM »
This topic is not engine related but it is to the largest group of friends I have. Life is a wonderful experience and yet it can take you to the lowest form of living anyone would care to experience. I say this because I am at that point right now. It might seem strange to have a post like this but I do consider the many people who I have never met to be some of my closest friends.
I have come to a time in my life that half of my heart and all of my soul seems shattered. I don't believe it is a weakness when a man turns to his friends in a time of need. I feel that is what friends are for.

Who I am most upset at is myself that I have had blind eyes and deaf ears when someone so very special in my life was speaking. God teaches us to be kind and listen to others needs and it seems I have been anything but that. Why is it that the people we love the most get treated the worse.

I had a rude awakening a week ago and as it is not official it seems it could go that way any day. So I just continue to wake up and wonder if this is the day the remainder of my heart will be destroyed.

I hope and pray that anyone who is married will remember that having and playing with engines or any other hobby to some extent needs to be OK with both parties. It is not the engines or the hobbies that has caused this but the relationship I have put towards the hobbies that has caused this. I know that in the future if I do something my wife is not interested in I will pay closer attention to her and less of the hobby.

I guess my request from this post would be that anyone who has a relationship with God to think about me and maybe remember me in a prayer that Gods will be done in my marriage. It will be the only way it is healed.

If you don't pray an encouraging word would be helpful also. Since I don't have family close by my largest source of support is with this forum.

I am sure what ever the outcome I will survive I just hope I will be allowed a second chance to survive happily. Thank you, Mike DD  :( :(

Original Lister Cs Engines / Re: Container Shippment
« on: February 22, 2011, 02:09:08 AM »
The auction shipement is still planned. The orginal container where everyone bought their own engines will still happen. I just needed to make some changes. I will not affect delivery of either shipement. Mike

Original Lister Cs Engines / Re: Container Shippment
« on: February 21, 2011, 12:06:11 PM »
I need everyone who has purchased engines for the 1st container to get with me. I have some information. Mike lisenby

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